Play these two together

I still get reminded of you, I still think of you

I know that I should and must let go. But it seems that I cant get you out of my mind.

I see people wearing that familiar uniform, that collar pin, that PE shirt.

You appear in my mind whenever I see a cat or a dog.

151, 154, 74 all reminds me of you.

That very bus stop I used to spend hours waiting at. Waiting for your school to end.

Koi.
McChicken without lettuce.
Coke.
Straw Hearts.

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5th April

I will remember 5th April.

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that was a super heartbreaking sentence.

go ahead and kill me. i still love you. i still think of you.

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breaking down, falling apart.

things will never be the same once damage has been done.

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I am very scared. Am i just too sensitive? What am i scared of?

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It certainly does not feel good as I pulled that sticker out. It felt like I was ripping out my own heart as I pulled.

I dont know why, but I feel real happy when I see you smile or laugh.

its not that i dont care about you anymore. i still have feelings for you. i dont want to make things too awkward. i also have many things to worry about. i am not as carefree as people see. i still think of you all the time. i've said that if letting you go is the only thing i can do to make you happy, i would let you go.

I don't, but what can I do?

I mean it when I said that I am happy when you are happy.

Someone spoke to me yesterday with you being the topic. it made me think from a number of directions.

why do i always screw up?

and i have one, without looking for it.

if you remember, there is this occasion whereby we went on fb and qiuyu sir came by to say, "Jason, stop distracting R*******. r u going to take care of her for the rest of her life if she fails her A levels??"

That really woke me up. I really did study harder, my GPA did go up(though the improvement is not a big one).

I promised to cook for you, to run/train with you, to walk in the rain with you, i was even planning a trip to a place you wanted to go.

You have guided me , comforted me through those darkest day of the past 6 months. Now, its a miracle to wish for, for it to continue till we grow old, till our hands tremble, till our hair turns grey.

i am back

with bad news. It's over. I dont have the knowledge nor skills to maintain a relationship. It sucks.

for once, i thought/felt that i could narrow the massive difference between us.

her tests are everywhere, it was hard for us to meet up, hard for me to narrow that gap. narrowing the gap would require time, a luxury we didnt have.

when she said that she wanted to go to afa, i told her i would go with her, to step into her world, to know her more than before. seems like i wont get to do that.

on that fateful day, it was also the day of my race. i didnt want her to worry when she asked how was the race. i injured my ankle and had many crashes.

she closed her tumblr. maybe thats her way of telling me that its over.

she is the smarter one. she is able to spot conflicts in humans, spot conflicts and things that i cant see.

thats her.

we are the opposite of each other, thats what i thought could help us get together, to patch up our weaknesses with each other's strength. but it became our nemesis.

May she get well soon ):

neglect

I have been kept busy with my dear girlfriend, training, Red Cross, school, projects coming in non-stop and many other commitments.

I feel really tired but at the same time energised. very funny feeling.

hehe

3rd month, it grows with every moment, every second. love the surprises she gives to me. <3

I will always be here, beside you.

♡

More about ORANGESKIES

Many of my friends know who ORANGESKIES is.

She, yes, she. She is my girlfriend. No photos of her here. (we are shy :P)

Thats all I have for you guys now :)

HI ORANGESKIES.
LOVE YOU. ♡

HI PONKEY!

Been happy for the past 6 days :D

i want this to last forever :D

Feels great

to finally let it out of my chest. :)

Chris Medina - What Are Words

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TOTALLY FORGOT THAT I AM DONE WITH THIS CURRENT "CHALLENGE" AHAHAHAHA!

Day 13:

What is the worst type of pain you have ever felt?


so painful, that i cant say.

Day 12:

Write an apology letter to someone.


I do hope for your forgiveness. Sorry.

Day 11:

Write a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Thank you for waking me up.

Day 10:

Who is the one person that you have hurt the most?

Could it be you?

Day 9:

Who is the one person that has hurt you the most?

Hurt me the most? So many people.
No names okay? I want to put this behind.

Day 8:

If you could redo one thing that has caused hurt in your life, what would it be?

Just going all out? Enough of holding back.

Day 7:

What was the saddest time of your life? Why?

Day 6:

What’s the worst thing that you’ve done to your significant other?

Worst thing? Hurting them with my stupidity, super dense mind. yea.

My truthful answers always seems like stupid answers, answers that are there just to get the question over and done with. Those answers, are the answers from the bottom of my heart. Those answers to my significant other, are some of the most truthful answers.

Few people know the amount of truthfulness in my answers. Those people, are the people closest to me. Not my family. But my really really close friends.

Day 5:

What’s the worst thing that your significant other has done to you?

Not trusting me. But then again. its a cycle, like, how to trust you when you dont trust me? vicious cycle.